Friday, August 24, 2012

Day #190

I wonder if he realizes how much the girls truly need him around? Maeve is sitting there completely content wearing daddy's hat, holding daddy's hand, calm and relaxed. Josie gets very hyper and playful during his visits but he seems to have a calming affect on Maeve. I really do wonder if he knows how much they love him? I have to say that he is a very self centered person who decides to play "daddy" when it suits him but it has to be when he feels going out with his friends is not more important. I have also noticed that the day after a visit like this throws Maeve for a loop and she becomes irritable, easy to strike out and overall more intense. I don't know...I am fed up with his inability to be the father the girls need, his penchant for finding excuses why he can't come see them, and his total lack of concern for their well being. I also recognize how much the girls enjoy having him visit. If I step back from my own feelings and look at it from the girls perspective I can understand their wanting daddy around but I am to the point where I can justify telling him to come every single day or not at all. It is a conundrum!

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